Why would we not go crazy
Writing or pondering about death is terribly difficult, everyone has their own opinion, fears, and anxieties… a few months ago I heard a phrase on TV that surprised me quite a bit because I would say it summarizes my fears regarding death.
Meredith Grey said something like “We shouldn’t ask ourselves how we go crazy, we should ask ourselves how we don’t. With everything we can lose in a day, a moment, we have to wonder what the hell keeps us sane.”
It’s such a cruel but true summary… we live our lives many times deciding to ignore what may come in the future, many times we wake up, work, sleep and everything starts again, we take for granted that there will be a tomorrow, we hope it will be as good as today.
And maybe that’s why we don’t go crazy as Meredith says, because if for a moment we stop to think about everything we can lose in an instant, how a person’s life can change completely with an unexpected phone call, how we can be sleeping peacefully while our loved ones may be saying goodbye to the world, how today we wake up and can call and hopefully hug our parents, siblings and we don’t know if they will be there at the end of the day, or maybe it will be us who won’t be there.
Sometimes I think and they tell me that I am a great pessimist for thinking these things… but when one has to live far from the ones they love the most, when one does not have the blessing of seeing them and telling them that one loves them every day, when one cannot spend all their days with those whom one day will miss more than anything, I think it is normal to fear that moment when if it is one’s turn to keep living life will change forever and certainly not for the better…
Perhaps even becoming aware of death, thinking about it from time to time is not totally bad, perhaps it helps us appreciate daily blessings and not forget that nothing is forever and that to die you just have to be alive and that a hug and an I love you cost nothing but are worth a lot…